October 22, 2009

Walking in the Rain

I recently just celebrated my 10th wedding anniversary without my husband. As difficult as it is to type those words, the day was really a blessing. When a friend asked how it was, I described it this way: When you are sick and feel miserable, but you are curled up on a couch with a warm fuzzy blanket and are sipping a warm cup of soup--I wasn't glad to be there (a widow on my anniversary) but there was something soothing and healing about it. For several hours, I had just stayed in my room and prayed and cried and remembered and dreamed and wrote in my journal and wrote in my journal and wrote in my journal:) And I confess too, I ate chocolate! It was an amazingly healing time.

I believe it was the results of many people's prayers. A dear sweet friend sent me an e-card that said: I wish I had a big yellow umbrella.......that would keep away all the rain in your life....I would hold it over your head, and the drops would splash, splash and you would never even feel it........But I don't have a big yellow umbrella--So I'll walk through the rain with you. I think I had many sisters-in-the-Lord walking with me that day. I didn't feel alone like I thought I would. I felt the Lord, oh, so close. And Jim seemed not so far away either. I pray that everyone that reads this has a friend that will walk through the rain with them, especially JESUS, "a friend that sticketh closer than a brother" (or a sister)

October 13, 2009

Sweet Words From Little Lips

Yesterday my little Snurr pressed his cheek against mine and said, "You angel, Mommy!" To which I replied, "I'm an angel?" "Nup! You watch over me!" Snurr beamed, "You my Angel Mommy."

I don't think of myself as an angel; I know too much about myself. Most the time I don't feel like I am even a good mom. But a child's perspective is always so different than ours. So is God's. He sees things in me I don't; and He blesses my kids by showing them things I don't see in me either.

I guess I have a new image to live up to:)