April 18, 2008

Singing Again

I did it! I sang a solo in front of church! It has been years, literally, since I sang a special at church. Back in our former church, a friend and I would sing specials almost every Sunday. Then I had my 2nd child and she left the church and a hundred other things. We'd sing to the boys at night. I sang to them "I must tell Jesus" the night their daddy died. Then I couldn't do the nightly songs for over a month. Gradually I began singing to them at night. Then in the daytime. Then in the van. Then at a Ladies Fellowship. And now it was time for in front of church. After coming off a fast several weeks back, I awoke with a song on my heart, "Wings as Eagles" by Ron Hamilton. Now this song is one I haven't been able to sing through without crying. It speaks of having your dreams crumble, your strength almost gone, and life shatters all your dreams. You get the picture. Well, it wouldn't leave my head. And one day the hymnal on the piano was opened to it, and the time after that the congregation sang it. Then I had this picture in my mind of my husband sitting in a church pew with his arm across the back of it. He was grinning from ear to ear that smile that said, "That's my woman!" So I felt the Lord saying clearly "Sing it!" Then I got sick and all I could do was squeak. Finally, I went to my pastor Wednesday and said, "I know my voice isn't back to 100%, but if I don't sing this song, I am going to burst!" So he had me sing that night.

Snipp elbowed me right before it was time for the special and whispered, "Don't cry!" "I won't," I said, though I wasn't sure. But as I sang, I looked at Snipp and Snapp it caused me to smile at these blessings from the Lord and I shed not a tear. Now I can not speak for the congregation. I did accidentaly start singing the 1st verse again instead of the second, but I quickly caught myself. Snapp was quick to point out that I messed up when I returned to my seat. He still gave me a big hug and smile though. Snapp loves to sing and is a little bit of a perfectionist about it. I don't claim to sing very well; I just love to sing to my Lord. My Life Verse: Psalm 28:7 The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him.

April 12, 2008

Who art thou ...

Scripture has a way of embedding in one's mind and resurfacing when the Holy Spirit is trying to get your attention. Some today say God doesn't speak. My reply is a challenge to read His Word and see if it doesn't speak to them. It is powerful beyond words. There are times when I don't know what to pray and His word fills my mind. There are times when I busy myself in this world and He rebukes me. Every word is with love, Fatherly love which isn't as tender as we want it sometimes.

"Who art thou that judgest another man's servant?" These words came clearly to me tonight. And I was lovingly "put in my place." Questions and conviction filled my heart. Who? How am I judging? My mind reeled over the past hours and days. Many, many sins came to mind. Tears welded up within me and another scripture was my heart's cry "God be merciful to me a sinner."(Luke 18:13) Oh, being washed by the Lord is so rejuvenating, so refreshing and purifying. Upon arriving home, I had to search God's Word for His words I heard tonight. At last, I found them.

Romans 14
4Who art thou that judgest another man's servant? to his own master he standeth or falleth. Yea, he shall be holden up: for God is able to make him stand.
10But why dost thou judge thy brother? or why dost thou set at nought thy brother? for we shall all stand before the judgment seat of Christ.
11For it is written, As I live, saith the Lord, every knee shall bow to me, and every tongue shall confess to God.
12So then every one of us shall give account of himself to God.

WOW! Four verses backed with power and conviction and truth. My mind will be "chewing" on these for weeks!

April 09, 2008

Go Seeing Daddy

This past week we had special meetings at church. There was so much that touched my heart that I cannot blog it at this time. But something God clearly spoke to me on was this. "If your husband was going to be in town from 8pm-10pm on a Saturday night, wouldn't you take the boys and go meet with him?" It wouldn't matter how late it was, it wouldn't matter how early we needed to get up the next morning for Sunday School. No excuse would be good enough to deny myself and the boys time with my husband, time with daddy. "I am their Father; I am Your Husband. Come meet with me this Saturday night," my Lord whispered to me. Every Saturday night our church has prayer meeting. And God's Word says, "For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I in the midst of them." God, the Almighty Caretaker of us promised to be there. Why have we denied ourselves His Presence?? Why? No more. No more excuses. We went to prayer meeting this last Saturday and let me simple say, God was there! It was like when your eyes are shut you can still feel a hug and the feeling of being loved lasts long after that hug is done. The Presence of God was powerfully there. Snipp even told me he felt it. We definately will be going to see Abba this Saturday night:)