April 18, 2008

Singing Again

I did it! I sang a solo in front of church! It has been years, literally, since I sang a special at church. Back in our former church, a friend and I would sing specials almost every Sunday. Then I had my 2nd child and she left the church and a hundred other things. We'd sing to the boys at night. I sang to them "I must tell Jesus" the night their daddy died. Then I couldn't do the nightly songs for over a month. Gradually I began singing to them at night. Then in the daytime. Then in the van. Then at a Ladies Fellowship. And now it was time for in front of church. After coming off a fast several weeks back, I awoke with a song on my heart, "Wings as Eagles" by Ron Hamilton. Now this song is one I haven't been able to sing through without crying. It speaks of having your dreams crumble, your strength almost gone, and life shatters all your dreams. You get the picture. Well, it wouldn't leave my head. And one day the hymnal on the piano was opened to it, and the time after that the congregation sang it. Then I had this picture in my mind of my husband sitting in a church pew with his arm across the back of it. He was grinning from ear to ear that smile that said, "That's my woman!" So I felt the Lord saying clearly "Sing it!" Then I got sick and all I could do was squeak. Finally, I went to my pastor Wednesday and said, "I know my voice isn't back to 100%, but if I don't sing this song, I am going to burst!" So he had me sing that night.

Snipp elbowed me right before it was time for the special and whispered, "Don't cry!" "I won't," I said, though I wasn't sure. But as I sang, I looked at Snipp and Snapp it caused me to smile at these blessings from the Lord and I shed not a tear. Now I can not speak for the congregation. I did accidentaly start singing the 1st verse again instead of the second, but I quickly caught myself. Snapp was quick to point out that I messed up when I returned to my seat. He still gave me a big hug and smile though. Snapp loves to sing and is a little bit of a perfectionist about it. I don't claim to sing very well; I just love to sing to my Lord. My Life Verse: Psalm 28:7 The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him.

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