Psalms 138:7 Though I walk in the midst of trouble, thou wilt revive me: thou shalt stretch forth thine hand against the wrath of mine enemies, and thy right hand shall save me.
My pastor preached Sunday about Revival. He quoted a man who said, "Go home, draw a circle around yourself, and ask God to revive everything inside that circle." During invitation, I knelt at the pew I was in. I was the only one in that pew and I felt God so close to me.
As I prayed for God to revive me, I felt Him speak to my heart to obey what He had told me to do. I had to think for a moment, but then I knew what He was talking about. Two weeks ago during prayer meeting I was praying out loud, I was about to say "Thank You for this church family." But as I said thank you, I felt God prick my heart to say Thank you for taking Jim..............well I didn't. It was such a private thing to say in front of others. It is such a difficult thing to think let alone verbalize. So I caught my breath and then just thanked God for my church family.
So Sunday I knew what I was suppose to do. So verbally out loud I told God thank You for taking Jim. Then the wave of tears came and I wept. The tears were of mixed emotions: grief, gratefulness, humility, brokenness. Without Jim in my life, I have pursued Christ in a way I never did when Jim was here.
I still miss Jim so much. Even in typing those words, tears come yet again. A part of me became crippled when he left my side. But the Lord used that crippling to draw me closer to His side. And draw others to Himself as well. There is so many ripples that God knew about that I didn't.
In Sunday School we have been studying about the miracles of Christ. Time and time again He is healing people and GOD is glorified. But there are times, when the Lord allows people to be crippled either physically or deep within their soul so He is glorified. The LORD continues to teach me how to thrive in Him. To find my completeness in Him. But He also understands the grief in my heart that makes me walk with a limp in my soul.
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January 29, 2015
Strength
Psalms 138:3 In the day when I cried thou answeredst me, and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul.
Psalms 138:7 Though I walk in the midst of trouble, thou wilt revive me: thou shalt stretch forth thine hand against the wrath of mine enemies, and thy right hand shall save me.
Psalms 138:8 The LORD will perfect that which concerneth me: thy mercy, O LORD, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of thine own hands.
These are the verses God shared with me as I read my Bible on Jim's birthday. It is so hard to believe that it was nine years ago that Jim was fixing the van during the rain and sleet. Nine years ago he
came in with ice covering his beard, ate supper and had cake with us. He opened his presents of warm flannel shirts, tucked the boys into bed and then went back out to finish fixing the van. Nine years ago we decorated the dining room with streamers that would remain hanging up till after his death.
Tears bubbled on the surface of my churning emotions for half of the day. They finally spilled over when we were watching home videos. But as the day went on, my strengthen within grew. The boys and I had a good day together remembering, honoring, living.
January 15, 2015
LORD, I Come to You
I know it has been much, much too long since I wrote.
Life gets so busy as I balance all the hats in my life, and I find myself not having as much free time on the computer. Another reason is that there has been some heavy private prayers on my heart that others have shared with me. And I find that when I am carrying things like that I tend to cocoon myself. Maybe it is so I don't accidentally share what I shouldn't, maybe because by being silent it helps me hold back the tears, maybe some of what God shares with me or what I share with Him is so sacred though I long to share it words just don't do it justice. Whatever the reason, I know it has been toooooooo long since I blogged and journaled. I enjoy writing and it is very therapeutic for me. There has been several times in the few months when I thought, " I so need to blog this." It has happened enough that I come to my computer when I should be asleep and find the release of words so healing.
Where to start?
Why today of course. I went to the mailbox and there was a simple sweet note from a sister-in-Christ and a sister-in-sorrow. "Praying this will be an encouragement to you today!" and the following was with it:
Lord, I Come to You
Read: John 6:65-69
" Lord, I come to You," ad my heart is comforted already, just in coming.
"Lord,"
my Saviour,
the Lord of my life, who knows, understands, and plans all for good, the One who has all the power I need for this hour.
"I come,"
so needy,
in my weakness and my inability,
with burdens pressing on my heart,
when my tongue cannot frame the words or utter my deep longings,
with tears of sorrow for my wretched failures, and needing forgiveness.
"To You,"
in trust, claiming Your promises,
in confidence, acknowledging that You know what You are doing in my life,
for comfort in the cares that fret and wear,
for strength to plod on faithfully and know this too shall pass.
"Lord, I Come to You," with gratitude that You are there.
I don't know who wrote this to give credit to at the moment.
But I know Who knew I needed it this day.
My Lord, my Best Friend, the Lover of my soul, my Jesus, my Saviour............
He knew and He had this come at just the right time.
LORD, I Come to YOU........
Life gets so busy as I balance all the hats in my life, and I find myself not having as much free time on the computer. Another reason is that there has been some heavy private prayers on my heart that others have shared with me. And I find that when I am carrying things like that I tend to cocoon myself. Maybe it is so I don't accidentally share what I shouldn't, maybe because by being silent it helps me hold back the tears, maybe some of what God shares with me or what I share with Him is so sacred though I long to share it words just don't do it justice. Whatever the reason, I know it has been toooooooo long since I blogged and journaled. I enjoy writing and it is very therapeutic for me. There has been several times in the few months when I thought, " I so need to blog this." It has happened enough that I come to my computer when I should be asleep and find the release of words so healing.
Where to start?
Why today of course. I went to the mailbox and there was a simple sweet note from a sister-in-Christ and a sister-in-sorrow. "Praying this will be an encouragement to you today!" and the following was with it:
Lord, I Come to You
Read: John 6:65-69
" Lord, I come to You," ad my heart is comforted already, just in coming.
"Lord,"
my Saviour,
the Lord of my life, who knows, understands, and plans all for good, the One who has all the power I need for this hour.
"I come,"
so needy,
in my weakness and my inability,
with burdens pressing on my heart,
when my tongue cannot frame the words or utter my deep longings,
with tears of sorrow for my wretched failures, and needing forgiveness.
"To You,"
in trust, claiming Your promises,
in confidence, acknowledging that You know what You are doing in my life,
for comfort in the cares that fret and wear,
for strength to plod on faithfully and know this too shall pass.
"Lord, I Come to You," with gratitude that You are there.
I don't know who wrote this to give credit to at the moment.
But I know Who knew I needed it this day.
My Lord, my Best Friend, the Lover of my soul, my Jesus, my Saviour............
He knew and He had this come at just the right time.
LORD, I Come to YOU........
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